pinned

          struggling
          to find relief
          for i am pinned
          unfree.
             memories tiptoe around corners
          and
          creep up on me
          and
          stand in my face.
          others lurk in the shadows
          then
                  rush at me
          and
                      knock me down.
          leaving me alone
                      to
          pick myself up and stumble on.
                              i am pinned
                within
          this body
          this inflexible
                  uncooperative cocoon
          that
             hides my thoughts
          and silences my desires.